Now I Know Why I Had Itchy Eyes

Yeah so....itchy eyes....were followed by the burning itchy sensation in my ears and throat this morning! YAY FOR ALLERGIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! or not...

I am currently having a good night of tv. Watched The Office which is now a small addiction of mine. I find it being one of those only shows where I find myself laughing out loud by myself. Which seems kind of weird to me anyway. Followed by that is Last Comic Standing. There are some funny people out there. These are people that end up at the Loony Bin....that is the ones cut before going on to the final round.

Interesting note: I see a guy that says his knees hurt on a commercial. He proceeds to dance because his knees feel so good after taking Aleve... Okay. Even though it takes away the pain...your knees still have problems and maybe you shouldn't be dancing. Just a thought. Food that is...

I noticed how much a nerd geek I am again today. Even though I have forgotten a lot of stuff from school, I occasionally remember stuff in engineering I found interesting. Take for example how stop lights and automatic gates work. After my run, I see this girl and her mother go up to the gate and try to get it to open by jumping on it. I think to myself "Well if you really wanted it to open, you would both lay your bikes down on the sensor to increase the magnetic flux to trigger the gate from the induced electrical current." Yeah, I gave myself a wedgie right then and there. Only somethings I do cause me to say wow....this was one of those signature moments.

I am currently trying to figure out what to do with the weekend. On the one hand, I could try to come hang out with some buddies in the OKC and spend an ungodly amount of money. Or I can stay here in Tulsa and be ridiculously bored and save that money. Either way it's good and bad. I guess I need to decide pretty quick so I can pack and leave from work. That cuts out about 10 miles extra of driving back to my apartment to pack.

Current Event: Polygamist Sect Kids Must Be Returned to Parents

Okay, so part of me wants to yell in rage, but other parts thinks that it is the right thing to do. I understand the point of religious freedom and I do agree with it. But the getting married to young girls just seems wrong. I guess it's because of the world I've grown up in teaches me that that is wrong. But I can look at a 16 year old girl and be like wow she's pretty but man she looks young. As a matter of fact, she is. I'll be 32 when that 16 year old girl is 24. Yeah 32 older than the hills. So I think they need to go back to their mothers....but those creepy old dudes...yeah not so much. IF that isn't some macho man derived belief system....well it has to be...it makes the 72 virgin thing look kind of tame macho guy thinking. I'll probably get spam blocked again for this paragraph.

Well, I'll leave it with that and get off the soapbox on which I constantly stand.

To the Christian music artists: Yes God is great and good...but your music makes him sound more like a glorified Barney than a God that WILL smack you in the face if he doesn't like what you are doing. 'Nuff said.

Pace

Blake

Itchy Eyeballs

Well, now that my blog isn't flagged for spam, I can actually write again. Not sure what happened there. I don't know what set it off really either. My first post was nothing special.

Anyway, this work week has kinda had its ups and downs. I enjoy my job at times but others it's just frustrating. A lot of it isn't engineering but more or less paperwork. For example, I have to get Soda Ash added to an MSDS (material data safety sheet) booklet which I don't have access to. SO...I have to go through someone else in order to get that added. Stuff like that is what kills my day and makes me unmotivated. I am also sick of not knowing what in the world is going on. I know that I give a lot of people blank stares, because I don't know. There are so many different people to contact for so many different things....ughhh part of a new job I suppose.

I've gotten back on the dieting and exercising kick again even though I hate it. Considering I have high cholesterol and triglycerides and I have loads of fat, it makes me one unhealthy boy. I'm anticipating my doctors appointment next week and my blood results. I hope they are better than last time.

Truth be told, I'm trying to work back to playing tennis again. Hard part is going to be sinking a lot of money into the sport in order to get decent again. Andddd not being able to run without my knees hurting makes it pretty difficult. UGH. I think eating healthy is the hardest part. I enjoy eating out with my friends so much...and I want to get a soda with some unhealthy food and really enjoy the night. I can do that still, just I should do it in moderation. And if you know me well...I don't do a whole lot in moderation. It's either all the way or nothing. I probably should do something to change my personality and attitude on something like that.

Eh more to come. Gotta shower and read some chemical engineering....sick.

oh yeah. STOP MAKING GOD CORNY!!!

--Blake

Struggle

Look, he is coming in the clouds,
and every eye will see him,
even those who pierced him;
and all the peoples of the earth will mourn because of him.
So shall it be! Amen.

Rev 1:7

Well, it certainly has been a while since I have written or blogged. Mainly because I didn't want future employers to see it and judge my opinions etc. Again, I won't attach my name to this blog. I don't expect my friends to read it, although they may. I took the idea to start blogging because Ryan started to do it again. I think it's good to write about things to get them off your mind to tell them to the people you care about most. I'm a hard person to know anyway.

I have been having a hard time getting started and/or finishing tasks. I have not been motivated to do much and I struggle to find meaning or purpose in daily life. Some people might say that I am depressed. I don't think I am depressed. I just am in the same boat as a lot of men that I know. I feel like there is some purpose out there for me and that I'm not even close. Going to work is monotonous and doesn't leave me fulfilled at the end of the day. Like a good friend of mine said "it pays the bills." Sure it does and that is good, but after that what does it do? I struggle to find the answer to that.

Got sidetracked more to come.