Struggle

Look, he is coming in the clouds,
and every eye will see him,
even those who pierced him;
and all the peoples of the earth will mourn because of him.
So shall it be! Amen.

Rev 1:7

Well, it certainly has been a while since I have written or blogged. Mainly because I didn't want future employers to see it and judge my opinions etc. Again, I won't attach my name to this blog. I don't expect my friends to read it, although they may. I took the idea to start blogging because Ryan started to do it again. I think it's good to write about things to get them off your mind to tell them to the people you care about most. I'm a hard person to know anyway.

I have been having a hard time getting started and/or finishing tasks. I have not been motivated to do much and I struggle to find meaning or purpose in daily life. Some people might say that I am depressed. I don't think I am depressed. I just am in the same boat as a lot of men that I know. I feel like there is some purpose out there for me and that I'm not even close. Going to work is monotonous and doesn't leave me fulfilled at the end of the day. Like a good friend of mine said "it pays the bills." Sure it does and that is good, but after that what does it do? I struggle to find the answer to that.

Got sidetracked more to come.