Work Work Work Work Work........

I'm on my lunch break and I figured I would update so I didn't spend 30-45 minutes tonight doing it. It feels like my time after work just blazes by so I'll try this method of updating to gain some time when I get home.

I've been super tired this week. I don't know if it has been the rollover from last week's adventure or what. I've eaten some unhealthy meals the last couple of days and I wonder if that is causing me to be fatigued. I also haven't run due to the rain.

I am really getting bored with this running thing. I probably should lift weights too. I was thinking about purchasing a road bike which are expensive or a tennis ball machine which are expensive. For a relatively good road bike or tennis ball machine, it would be about the same price so I'm torn. A road bike would help me to get better cardio in, but a tennis ball machine would let me get my game back sicne I have no one to play with. I could join a tennis gym and use their machine....but I would spend that much on a tennis ball machine for a year. Knowing me I'll probably get neither and just gripe. :-)

Trying to find balance in life is a really hard thing to do. During the course of the night I want to study the Bible, study chemical engineering, exercise, eat well, watch tv and play xbox. All of this cannot be accomplished in one evening unless I do each for like 15 minutes. If I could limit it down it should include, Bible, Chem E, exercise and eat well. Tv I can take out and I have. Seen me on xbox recently? No? I really miss that because it was time kinda "hanging" out with friends.

That is another thing I cannot make up here is friends. Everyone at my work is older or is married and wouldn't want to hang out. So I try to join a Bible study to accomplish gaining friends while furthering my faith. But I couldn't see myself hanging out with any of them. I could join a gym, but again I don't know where college aged kids hang out or what they do for that matter. I will not go to a bar and just sit there or make random talk with people. Maybe that is ego talking, but I think that doing that at a bar is creepy. I know some of my other friends that have moved off to places that have had trouble making friends too. It's just like making a relationship at a bar out of thin air. Just really tough. I'm trying to get involved with stuff. Hopefully it'll go well. I'm not patient so that won't help me either.

Speaking of studying. I finding it impossible to really want to do anything when I go home. School just absolutely ruined any drive or motivation when I leave work. I had a mini presentation today and needed to study for some stuff. I think I only looked at it for like 15 minutes today and was pretty unprepared at work. I did okay. Granted it was just in front of the interns who couldn't have cared less. I can't get motivated to do much but exercise.

MMMMmmmm I just ate an ice cream sandwich. My second of the day. Bad BLAKE BAD! Self descipline. They gave out free ice cream from the Schwans truck this week for some kind of good work? I'm not sure what we did, but whatever. People were grabbing whole boxes and putting them in the freezer. I wanted to grab some of the steaks that were nearby LOL. But we were only allowed the ice cream. So there is a bunch of ice cream stuff left in the freezer. Probably until tomorrow or tonight and it'll be gone.

I was supposed to play tennis with Huy Nguyen today, but it just rained and I doubt the courts will be dry. I need to run though at the very least.

I'm running out of things to say and lunch is almost over.

--ME